May 21st, 2010

Been thinking

The last few weeks have been really hard, and I haven’t been able to sleep much lately. I go to bed at 2 am just to wake back at at 4 and I don’t fall back asleep until almost 6. Part of it due to stress, the other part is due to the lack of knowing what will happen day to day. I have been trying like crazy to find a new job so I can save up to see Girl this Christmas like we want to, but I am running out of time and have been forced to apply to something I didn’t want to do. It’s all in an attempt to make as much as I can to see her as quick as possible….

Night after night, for weeks now, I say good night to her and go to bed only to wake back up a little bit latter. Thinking too much about what might happen if I don’t find some work soon..  Just when i think I’ve lost it, I look at a gift from her. An early birthday present and think to myself her saying “Everything will be OK, we will make the best of this”.  With that thought I snap out of the rut I am in and start thinking better thoughts. She is my compass through this ordeal, keeping me on the right path.

Its now 5 am. I am off to bed trying to get to some sleep. Man, I wish she was here with me. I don’t think i would have such an issue sleeping if my bed wasn’t so empty.

Boy.

(Source: 5242miles.com)

AApril 17th, 2010

#28
Do you have sometimes that feeling that you’re just disconnected from the world? When something terrible happens, for example the loss of a person, and time just seems to stop and everything just feels like in a haze. In just a couple of years I had to deal with a lot of deaths, and it never gets easier to me. It happened recently, a persno I looked up to passed away, and I was (and still am) very sad. It’s sort of difficult that I’ve had so many experiences of this kind, but the Boy had none, so he doesn’t fully understand how hard it is for me. But that’s ok. I don’t wish something like this to happen to him.
We’ve gotten a couple of comments about a former post, and I think I should repost something I wrote in a comment before:

Because of my culture and personal opinion, I consider us to be still too young and too early into the relationship to live together (one of the first options for LDR couples if they don’t have much money to relocate). Luckily Boy agrees with my position. However, we are both exploring options to be able to spend more than a couple of weeks in each other’s country (be it work, education, etc). In the spirit of keeping this blog as anonymous as we can, we prefer to not give much insight of issues that are stopping us right now from throwing our arms to the air and just be together physically (e.g.: we mention money problems, but we don’t specify much behind that point.). All that being said, yes, it is one of our long term goals (if not, we don’t see much of a point on being LDR) and we hope that sooner or later it will become true.

We don’t think jumping into marriage is a good way to solve problems. We don’t believe in just doing it to have the possibility to be in the same country. We want to first overcome those obstacles, and then if time and the feeling is right, may be.
Girl.

AApril 17th, 2010

#28

Do you have sometimes that feeling that you’re just disconnected from the world? When something terrible happens, for example the loss of a person, and time just seems to stop and everything just feels like in a haze. In just a couple of years I had to deal with a lot of deaths, and it never gets easier to me. It happened recently, a persno I looked up to passed away, and I was (and still am) very sad. It’s sort of difficult that I’ve had so many experiences of this kind, but the Boy had none, so he doesn’t fully understand how hard it is for me. But that’s ok. I don’t wish something like this to happen to him.

We’ve gotten a couple of comments about a former post, and I think I should repost something I wrote in a comment before:

Because of my culture and personal opinion, I consider us to be still too young and too early into the relationship to live together (one of the first options for LDR couples if they don’t have much money to relocate). Luckily Boy agrees with my position. However, we are both exploring options to be able to spend more than a couple of weeks in each other’s country (be it work, education, etc). In the spirit of keeping this blog as anonymous as we can, we prefer to not give much insight of issues that are stopping us right now from throwing our arms to the air and just be together physically (e.g.: we mention money problems, but we don’t specify much behind that point.). All that being said, yes, it is one of our long term goals (if not, we don’t see much of a point on being LDR) and we hope that sooner or later it will become true.

We don’t think jumping into marriage is a good way to solve problems. We don’t believe in just doing it to have the possibility to be in the same country. We want to first overcome those obstacles, and then if time and the feeling is right, may be.

Girl.

November 8th, 2009
#16
I imagine us listening to “Make Love” by Daft Punk. It’s such a nice tune for a rainy day.
Girl

November 8th, 2009

#16

I imagine us listening to “Make Love” by Daft Punk. It’s such a nice tune for a rainy day.

Girl

October 10th, 2009
#13
I love annoying him over Facebook. I make sure there’s a poke form me waiting for him when he logs back in.  Sometimes we even say “we’re chatting over several IM programs, do we really need to be posting on each other’s walls at the same time?”. We’re just dorks like that.
Girl (*poke*)

October 10th, 2009

#13

I love annoying him over Facebook. I make sure there’s a poke form me waiting for him when he logs back in.  Sometimes we even say “we’re chatting over several IM programs, do we really need to be posting on each other’s walls at the same time?”. We’re just dorks like that.

Girl (*poke*)

October 1st, 2009
1 year and counting…
“I love you”.
So a year ago this month we looked at each other though a webcam and said those wonderful words. Since then, we have had our ups and downs like any couple. But we just send to let it roll off and we focus on the best of it.
And now a year later we are still doing the same dorky things, I make the same goofy faces. And the feelings are still there. Every time I say it it’s like it was the first time.
That is something I don’t think I can ever get used to. The fact that there is another person out there that loves me the same way, that feels the same way towards me.
Happy one year, baby!! And let’s make this one of many many many more to come.
Boy
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Who would have thought that there will come a day when we would be sharing these feelings? It’s weird how life works. Even if we come from different cultures and are apart thousands of miles, it feels as if we have been made for each other.
The language of love is only one.
I love you!
Girl

October 1st, 2009

1 year and counting…

“I love you”.

So a year ago this month we looked at each other though a webcam and said those wonderful words. Since then, we have had our ups and downs like any couple. But we just send to let it roll off and we focus on the best of it.

And now a year later we are still doing the same dorky things, I make the same goofy faces. And the feelings are still there. Every time I say it it’s like it was the first time.

That is something I don’t think I can ever get used to. The fact that there is another person out there that loves me the same way, that feels the same way towards me.

Happy one year, baby!! And let’s make this one of many many many more to come.

Boy

**  **  **  **  **  **  **  **  **  **

Who would have thought that there will come a day when we would be sharing these feelings? It’s weird how life works. Even if we come from different cultures and are apart thousands of miles, it feels as if we have been made for each other.

The language of love is only one.

I love you!

Girl

August 12th, 2009
The Notebook… (not the movie)
I broke down and got us a Notebook to sent back and forth. I hope this notebook will be full with fun things we can treasure over the many years to come.
I got a Moleskine because everything I have read about them says that they are really durable. And we need that,  the damn thing will be going over 10,000 per round trip.
In a way I am kinda jealous of the so-called damn thing, it will be be in her hands before I can ever be.  The goal is to have it sent back and forth maybe once a month.
So today it was sent off, as well with a ton of other goodies that I have gathered together.
…I hope she gets it soon….
Boy

August 12th, 2009

The Notebook… (not the movie)

I broke down and got us a Notebook to sent back and forth. I hope this notebook will be full with fun things we can treasure over the many years to come.

I got a Moleskine because everything I have read about them says that they are really durable. And we need that,  the damn thing will be going over 10,000 per round trip.

In a way I am kinda jealous of the so-called damn thing, it will be be in her hands before I can ever be.  The goal is to have it sent back and forth maybe once a month.

So today it was sent off, as well with a ton of other goodies that I have gathered together.

…I hope she gets it soon….

Boy

June 30th, 2009
Something About Us
How could two French guys get it so right?
Every time I here this song I just stop what I am doing and I can imagine her in my arms. Or the two of us slow dancing with one ear bud in each ear.
~
It might not be the right timeI might not be the right oneBut there’s something about us I want to sayCause there’s something between us anyway
I might not be the right oneIt might not be the right timeBut there’s something about us I’ve got to doSome kind of secret I will share with you
I need you more than anything in my lifeI want you more than anything in my lifeI’ll miss you more than anyone in my lifeI love you more than anyone in my life
~
I couldn’t say it better myself.
Sometimes I do have a hard time expressing just how I feel. I have always loved the music of Daft Punk.  So one day i was feeling a little down and played the Interstella movie and just closed my eyes and listend.
Needless to say the song was just what I wanted to say. So I shared it with her…
It has kinda become our song.
Boy

June 30th, 2009

Something About Us

How could two French guys get it so right?

Every time I here this song I just stop what I am doing and I can imagine her in my arms. Or the two of us slow dancing with one ear bud in each ear.

~

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there’s something about us I want to say
Cause there’s something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there’s something about us I’ve got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I’ll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life

~

I couldn’t say it better myself.

Sometimes I do have a hard time expressing just how I feel. I have always loved the music of Daft Punk.  So one day i was feeling a little down and played the Interstella movie and just closed my eyes and listend.

Needless to say the song was just what I wanted to say. So I shared it with her…

It has kinda become our song.

Boy