May 21st, 2010
Been thinking
The last few weeks have been really hard, and I haven’t been able to sleep much lately. I go to bed at 2 am just to wake back at at 4 and I don’t fall back asleep until almost 6. Part of it due to stress, the other part is due to the lack of knowing what will happen day to day. I have been trying like crazy to find a new job so I can save up to see Girl this Christmas like we want to, but I am running out of time and have been forced to apply to something I didn’t want to do. It’s all in an attempt to make as much as I can to see her as quick as possible….
Night after night, for weeks now, I say good night to her and go to bed only to wake back up a little bit latter. Thinking too much about what might happen if I don’t find some work soon.. Just when i think I’ve lost it, I look at a gift from her. An early birthday present and think to myself her saying “Everything will be OK, we will make the best of this”. With that thought I snap out of the rut I am in and start thinking better thoughts. She is my compass through this ordeal, keeping me on the right path.
Its now 5 am. I am off to bed trying to get to some sleep. Man, I wish she was here with me. I don’t think i would have such an issue sleeping if my bed wasn’t so empty.
Boy.
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December 1st, 2009
The countdown begins
I am so nervous. I have never flown that far before, I have never left the US before. But soon enough I will be on a plane to see her. The first time in a very long time. The first time since we started dated.
I have so much that needs to be done beforehand. My passport is in the works. My job isn’t all too happy with me taking off most of December, but they will get over it =P.
AAAHHH! I don’t even own any luggage. The next few weeks will be a bit crazy. But I know in the end it will all be worth it, to walk off that plane and see her face smiling at me….. I would go through this a thousand times if it ended that way each and every time.
Boy
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