May 21st, 2010
The last few weeks have been really hard, and I haven’t been able to sleep much lately. I go to bed at 2 am just to wake back at at 4 and I don’t fall back asleep until almost 6. Part of it due to stress, the other part is due to the lack of knowing what will happen day to day. I have been trying like crazy to find a new job so I can save up to see Girl this Christmas like we want to, but I am running out of time and have been forced to apply to something I didn’t want to do. It’s all in an attempt to make as much as I can to see her as quick as possible…. Night after night, for weeks now, I say good night to her and go to bed only to wake back up a little bit latter. Thinking too much about what might happen if I don’t find some work soon.. Just when i think I’ve lost it, I look at a gift from her. An early birthday present and think to myself her saying “Everything will be OK, we will make the best of this”. With that thought I snap out of the rut I am in and start thinking better thoughts. She is my compass through this ordeal, keeping me on the right path. Its now 5 am. I am off to bed trying to get to some sleep. Man, I wish she was here with me. I don’t think i would have such an issue sleeping if my bed wasn’t so empty. Boy.Been thinking
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